not enough

Like a withering second
               in a vast timeline
               you existed in my life,
a small portion that wasn’t enough,
             not enough to love you,
             not enough to melt in you,
not enough to paint my empty canvas
with the rainbow you were my love,
not enough to make you mine,
that was never enough
and it will never be.

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Tonight I see you…

I see you —
walking towards me
in a gentle manner,
apart from all mortal beholders
going beyond all sights.
This rainy night sway
amidst all chilling drops
through the grassy meadow
of our last known —
an intense feeling,
caresses of your sensitive palms
and like a paint brush
your fingers mapping upon my skin.
You are reaching me – my sweet beloved
walking towards me
softly – gently…

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মনে পড়ে কি? এটা তোমাকে নিয়ে লিখেছিলাম সেদিন। শব্দগুলো আজও আছে। শব্দের মাঝে তুমি আছো। শুধু আমার জীবনে নাই তুমি……!!


নিজেকে – এই আমাকে তোমার করেছিলাম…

একটা দুনিয়া পেছনে ফেলে হাঁটা দিয়েছিলাম
এক অজানা পথে – অজানা এক গন্তব্যে,
কখনো কি ভেবেছিলাম যে আর একটা দুনিয়া
আমার অপেক্ষা করে আছে।
সেদিন দেখেছিলাম ওই মুখটা তোমার
অপলক চোখে তাকিয়ে থেকেছি
দেখেছিলাম জীবনের শেষ দিনগুলো আমার
তোমার সাথে
তোমার পাশে
তোমার হাতে হাত রেখে
দেখেছিলাম প্রত্যেকটা সকাল
আর রাত – শুরু আর শেষ তোমার সাথে।
সেদিন তোমার সামনে বসে
নিজেকে – এই আমাকে তোমার করেছিলাম।

Once I left the world behind
and all the lives behind
walked towards an unknown destination
I have never known before.
I didn’t have an inkling
of meeting another world
— a world that was you.
The day my eyes set upon your face
lost myself completely
I beheld my life —
rest of it beside you,
beside you,
with you,
hand in hand
our fingers entwined.
Dreamt –
every morning will start with your smile
and night end
— interlaced in your arms.
That day — sitting in front of you
I handed over my soul in your hand
made me yours — for eternity.

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Holding your hand…

If there is a bit of possibility leftHolding hands
or even a grain of sand like hope

          I will be holding onto that
          that someday,
          may be someday

holding your hand —
your fingers firmly locked with mine
we will walk towards the horizon.
On the other side of the horizon
a life waiting for us
a life — once we dreamt together.


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Cluster of Thoughts

You are my salvation
through limitless love
and unendurable pain…


In a split second distance
I breathe the same air you take in
and that is how I have you
inside me, for now and a lifetime…


Time heals the wound
slowly and painfully but it does
only leaving a scar behind
to tell a broken story…


No matter how much I try
I cannot reach you
so I am sending my soul out
of this mortal cage
to meet yours
through the air to your lungs
through dreams in your sleep
through tears crawling down your cheeks
through music to your heart
through death to your life…


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