Yet more a terrible journey and I waded far far away
The mind is in complete disarray; encroaching into a very mid-day.
I exist and alive; and now awakened but a weary sigh heaved
through nostrils toward my – Self; my being cleaved.
Etched on my mind the very illustration of my entangled past
enraged me whilst I watch memories buried underneath years of dust.
Vivid-ness of a bright sun curtains my spectrum, my senses disavowed,
Away back somewhere a mystery may have unfolded and a ship wreck foreshadowed.
Be-wilderness devour my conscious yet I fly in tiresome direction
Over the beechen green of a nameless woodland, or may it my only fraction;
Wings spread out journey on such weary feathers anesthetizing momentum,
Up in the sky and beneath the sea, there betwixt lie bits of me undisturbed inside a sanctum.
The timeline past pulverized, only me and this very moment now left
standing at this edge, await to slog myself out of this mountain cleft.
Counting each and every second,
Seeking for the perfection
Such queries – obsolete
Moments within –
I – the person lost beyond time
Such place to fit in- isolated
A lone spring
Amidst the shadows
Nights- writing cold, hopeless words
Do I belong to the poets of the fall(?)
Enclosed all the doors, soul wrapped up in dreadful dark
Yearning heart- yearning spirit, and some moments time mark.
Moments those enveloped my past, running through my veins,
Like thousand Adders bite, feel such extreme – unendurable pains.
Life stories scattered in such way never were meant to be –
Disgraceful such living a life, rather than this death must be so easy.
Knowing why showered the sky on day of a child’s birth – thundered aloud,
Heaven cried on such disastrous fate – the hell’s laughter in proud.
All queries gone leaving one hanging over my eyes always strike
Hand inscribed this story-did it feared once, trembled or ever sympathized (?)
Asking why these eyes filled with disguised faces (?)
White teeth smiles, only fake my heart embraces.
A day burns down to night with all its edges,
Under chilly night sky my soul utters immortal phrases.
Deepest night I hear from somewhere a wild wolf howls,
Screaming bronze-throat and underlying dust of bones.
Unknown fear haunts me down, around me lost wind moans,
Seeking for answers – on pages written some nameless poems.
Triumph upon my burdened soul-
a suppressed heart now unlocked,
restrain’d desires unleashed –
engulfed eyes opening in silence
with every beat of ticking clock.
Those glittering eyes overshadowing my numbness-
swift my heart with nervous excitement,
thousand drumless beats inside my mortal case
foreshadow’d hope which were numberless.
Thousand years passed in a reverie.
Dreamt of you only – so irresistible,
life with no movement but
desires were mine like brazen made,
impossible and was invincible.
Intimidated my soul, fear’d of destruction in love
life threatened – frenzi’d my heart,
cold hand of despair shadowing everywhere;
yet found such peace so heavenly
in your love – a Holyness inside my heart.
O my love, where is thou hand taking this lost soul now?
Mountains those left behind, ocean of mankind where discarded,
In my heart only thee exist, mind lost in thine graced gravity
Heart stopped beating, except thou face everything now faded.
Those lips intoxicating my soul with the stream of affection
Fingers lost in reaching and finding thou deep delved curve,
Hair so night like dark swaying on my face making me numb
Eyes like a foaming ocean, beneath the sky hovers only thy love.
There lies my reality doomed somewhere far back in the past
Pursuing thy beauty, delicate and delightful touch of thine fingers
Bare prints of thy feet, I follow’d for the remembrance after death
Moments whilst stay’d here; (in my chest they remain) forever lingers.
Twilight; in between light and dark
Hanging few moments that so crimson,
Mighty Sun lost somewhere in the horizon
Where now these eyes stuck.
A lone star behind me started twinkling
In my eyes reflecting those bloody rays
Quickened now withering.
Here comes the wintery night
Now falling so quickly,
I know not – how and why
But a numb and lonely feeling
Wrapping up my soul
Covering my heart slowly.
Shivering with the touch of falling dew on my skin,
Thinking of my unknown destiny
Inside me a frenzy begins.
A long, cold and lone night
Now waiting ahead
a room with a deathly silence
A dimmed light; a cold- lifeless bed.
In between light and dark
My life; ‘Tis now hanging,
Nowhere to go, nobody to hold my hand
Here sitting alone, surroundings I cannot see
Deep down inside me I am dying.